It was always love

Hey, so I think you should know
That in between the downpours
The laughing realisations and sudden
Change of pace, fresh into the Unexpected
Where our former ‘para’ turned on a digm:
Regardless…it was always love.

Even before I could say, back then
In those days when the words died,
Shamefaced upon lips too scared to profess them
(For in profession, I felt there would be burdening
Or rejection; because I would have (rejected me)):
Regardless…it was always love.

Once I’d learned to say it Out Loud
Stutteringly at first, but with your eye-rolling
Blessing my attempts to convey what you already knew
I told you, with relative frequency, as I still do
For nothing (and everything) is different:
Regardless…it was always love.

Then after that first, electric night –
The suddenness which took us by surprise
And subsequent good-natured blaming of the other
For the alteration (though it was totally you) –
How much we both enjoyed the change of pace:
Regardless…it was always love.

No matter the time or distance passed
Things unsaid, or thoughts or deeds undone
That which we did was right and good and fed
Unknown hungers, and left us filled
With delicious memories and treasured Nows:
Regardless…it was always love.

Now I see you in dual vision
As I always have done, love, but now
With eyes attuned to your beauty, lit by your smile
One foot firmly planted in sense memory
The taste of your kiss, your body yielding to my touch:
Regardless…it was always love.

Let tomorrow’s Nexts bring what they may
No expectations to bind (just hopes to mark me)
I’ll keep eyes peeled for Ones, For Nows, and will be
Quite free to feel – for you, or for whomever –
I would have and will, cherish you anyway:
Regardless…it will always be love.