I miss you.
I fucking miss you.
Angrily, aggressively,
Like wanting to punch the walls
And shout about how much
I’m beginning to forget
Those moments;
The ones
I never thought
Would leave my heart
Yet somehow they’ve become
Faded, distorted, jarred
By the interference
Of the time
In which
We haven’t been.
Couldn’t have been.
And shouldn’t have anyway
Because the real wall-puncher
Is deep-down knowing
I have no right
To miss
You
But I do.
I so miss you.
The shape of you in the corner of my eye
The smile you crack in delight or surprise
Your laugh, your look, your scent, your hair
The waft of smoke in streetlit air and most of all
The feel of you; that quiet, frantic touch
Who knew an inch of skin could hold so much:
So intense and overwhelming, that connection
So stymied and so fraught was our affection, stalled
And time-bombed from the start.
Love’s leaking through
The schrapnel walls
Of my exploded
Heart.
The Well Tempered Bards 
Beautiful!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Thank you, my sweet 🙂
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A feeling known and so beautifully expressed.
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*sigh* it sucks. But thank you 🙂
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
Lizzi is missing someone.
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Aw thank you 🙂
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Damn. Gorgeous and full of the feels. Also, it is my belief that we are always allowed to miss whoever the fuck we want to miss, “allowed” or not so much because who allows us to live and love and miss but ourselves?
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I guess I’m back to worrying too much about ‘supposed to’, which is something I tell other people not to do.
I definitely got caught amidst the Feels, though!
I like your belief. One I might try to adopt.
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You tell me no “supposed to” or “should” all the time! We miss who we miss, even if they don’t necessarily belong in our life at the moment, or if they just aren’t for whatever reason. The heart knows.
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I KNOWWWW! And I didn’t miss the hypocrisy in it. Really truly I didn’t. I really like your thought. I’m gonna dwell on that a while. Thank you ❤
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Just want to say thank you for saying you like my thought. I’m feeling very much like no one does lately and so I’ve kind of abandoned putting any out there. In a bad place, I guess.
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Oh honey. That sucks. I DO like your thoughts, and I think you should keep putting them out there. Did something happen? I hope you’ve had someone to talk to…I know I’ve not been much around, and that I’m not your first choice, but I’m a good listener if you need someone *HUGS*
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Wait wait wait…first choice what? I have many first choices for many things. You are always awesome. No, no “thing” happened. Just having trouble getting words from my head out into the world lately. We’ll talk. I’m watching shark shows with Zilla right now and trying to write my TToT.
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I’m annoyed because Buzzfeed said they’d give character insight depending on what shark you picked (of 9) and they didn’t have my favourite.
First choice to talk to about these things 🙂 But I’m glad it wasn’t a Thing, rather a series of UNthings (by the sound of it).
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Hm. I’d like to show Zilla the Buzzfeed shark thing. Do you have a link?
It’s not about not being first choice. I think it’s mostly that I just don’t seek out anyone, really, and then all of a sudden I realize oh, hey, I probably could talk about that with someone. The perils of being an introvert.
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I guess at least the hindsight is 20/20 (P.S. I picked leopard shark and I quite liked the result even though it wasn’t the shark I WANTED to be able to pick – https://www.buzzfeed.com/erinlarosa/what-does-your-favorite-shark-say-about-you )
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After my divorce I was given a book to read by a social worker who had handled my case and the book was about how to parent children of divorce. In it, parents are told that when the child is away at the other parent’s house for a significant amount of time that you should not tell the child at all EVER that you miss them as it will make them feel bad and guilty of being over at the other parent’s place. And I threw the book away.
It is totally okay to miss people, even people you shouldn’t want to miss but do. It’s okay to tell people, even your child that you miss them (though I don’t think it should be dwelt on long enough-tell the child you miss them so they know you care and move on in the conversation by telling them how great it is they are having fun, etc.) because your heart is NOT stone nor ice. It is a living beating warm part of you and having FEELS and FEELING them is what we are supposed to do. I have been told I “shouldn’t” miss my grandmother so much since she’s been gone for almost three decades now but I do. I don’t miss her as much anymore but I still miss her. I will always miss my dad. And sometimes, but not often, I miss the friendship I had with my ex. I also miss the ‘what could have beens’ that have been in my life. And that’s all ok.
This poem expresses everything I’ve ever felt when missing someone. So well done for having the Feels and creating this beautifully evocative piece.
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Wow…thank you for this. That’s such a wonderful response and I so appreciate you sharing your thoughts on missing people. Usually I wouldn’t have a problem missing people, but this just…sucks. This missing. However, I’m coming around to the idea that I have a ‘right’ to feel ‘missing’ because it IS how I feel, and for no other reason.
The book you got given sounds silly – how upsetting for children not to think that their parent, who loves them, is even bothered by their absence! I’m glad you chucked it.
As for people who’ve died…geez, you can miss them forever and ever and ever. The intensity of missing lessens, but it’s always there, and should be, because love.
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Your poetry gives me a case of the feels and leaves me with little to say except WOW!
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Really? Well, thank you so much *happygrins*
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Those “feels” are raw and real and beautifully written. Hang in there. ❤
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Hanging, hanging, hanging, making a noose for my own neck, but hanging on in, Honeybee ❤
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Loads of raw emotion. Awesome and so fantastic to meet another poet!
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Thank you, Peggy! And thank you for sharing this. I LOVE meeting new poets – I’ll have to check your site 🙂
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Wow ❤
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Yeah? Thank you so much 😀
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Felt that not only in my heart, but in my gut! Well done.
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Thanks so much, Laurie. I’m still feeling punchy-sad this evening *sigh*
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